Oh my, Kitsune. I am so sorry for your string of losses. I cannot offer a reading, and I don't even know why I clicked on your post, but I was guided to, maybe.The only thing I can offer is that I think if you ask the Angels to bring you some comfort, they most certainly will. I have copied and pasted, below, specifically about Azrael.
Azrael is the “angel of death,” in the most beautiful and healing sense of the word. This is a far cry from the morbid image of a grim reaper stealing people away. Azrael, in contrast, is a grief counselor who lovingly guides souls to Heaven after their crossing. He then consoles the survivors and helps them heal from grief.Islamic theology holds that Azrael carries out God’s will for the souls of the deceased with profound reverence.
Azrael is sometimes confused with the similar-sounding name Azazael, who is considered a demon or fallen angel. Yet their personas, missions, and energies couldn’t be more different. Our Azrael is a pure and trustworthy being of God’s light.
When To Call On Archangel Azrael
Azrael helps with all aspects of loss, death, and transitions. If your heart is heavy with grief, call upon Azrael for healing and support. Loss can take many forms, and grief is the normal reaction to any kind of ending. Fortunately, Archangel Azrael is there to catch us whenever we fall.
regg
This is an excerpt from my book The Complete Encyclopedia of Angels:
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AzraelAzrael’s name means “he who helps God,” or “messenger.” His duty is to help the God (or gods) of various religions. Azrael will help you release anything blocking your spiritual growth.
He is also the angel of death. His main job is to guide people through the death process. Azrael helps them feel safe and secure as they leave this life behind, taking care they don’t suffer as they are dying. He helps their spirits adjust to life on the other side. Azrael keeps track of every person who is born and then erases their names when they die. It is said that a leaf falls from the throne of God when it is time for a person to die. Azrael has forty days to collect their soul. He also comforts the grieving family, enfolding them with his huge wings and filling them with his love and healing energy. If you call upon him in a time of grief, he will actually absorb the emotional pain of loss so you can be happy again.
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